miss_grimwood | Notes Passed (Special Features Disc)

Happy birthday to HBC, the OG loml. In celebration, this is one of the first Dark Shadows fics I wrote, but I couldn't decide if I liked it. It's an epistolary fic, but with incredibly short notes. The story jumps around a lot I think, but I know I'm incredibly critical of this - its four years old, and I've definitely learned and improved a lot since then

Julia/Elizabeth, as all of my Dark Shadows fics are, rated T, 783 words

Julia

Thank you for keeping me company last night. I’ve been so lonely since we lost Paul. I think this is the first time I’ve felt like myself for years, and it’s all because of you. Would you join me in my office tonight after dinner? I have an old bottle of bourbon we could share.

-Elizabeth

Elizabeth

Of course I’ll join you, with or without the booze. Last night with you I could’ve turned my back on the stuff forever.

-Julia

Julia

Please don’t feel like you must spend time with me since I’m your employer. This week has been wonderful, but if you need time alone, please tell me. If not, would you join me for a walk around the grounds this afternoon?

-Elizabeth

Liz

I will always be here to spend time with you, not because you pay me, because I love to be with you. It’s going to rain today, We’d better pack an umbrella.

-Julia

Julia

Please forgive me. I wouldn’t have insisted on walking if I’d have known how bad the weather would be. Thank you for giving me your jacket, but please don’t be so selfless again. I missed you at dinner. Roger is becoming unbearable, and Carolyn is, well, she’s very Caroyln at the moment. Willie will bring your lunch soon. If you feel better, please allow me to join you for a glass of whiskey (for medicinal purposes, of course). David will be fine without a session for as long as you need, he’s made such progress lately.

-Elizabeth

Julia,

Would you care to come out with me tonight? I haven’t been dancing in years. Let’s have a girls night out?

-Elizabeth

Liz,

Of course I’ll come dancing with you. Are we sneaking out, or are you telling the family? Come to my room, help me choose a dress?

Yours, Julia

Liz,

Thanks for a great night. I missed you at breakfast. I left some advil outside your door, you need practise getting hammered.

See you at dinner? Julia

Julia

I’m never drinking again. Come lay with me this evening?

-Elizabeth, from my deathbed

Lizzie

I’ve talked a lot about my big secret. I thought I’d never be able to tell it, but I cherish our nights together. May I tell you when we meet tonight? I only hope this won’t change the bond we have.

Yours, Julia

Julia please don’t lock yourself away. If you’d have stayed a few more seconds after you told me, you’d know it hasn’t changed anything. I don’t see you any differently Julia. You’re my best friend. I’m afraid if you won’t let me see you, I’ll have to break in to your room. Please, I need you.

Lizzie x

Julia, this has gone on for too long. The family is starting to notice. I can only tell them you’re hungover so many times. Let me in. - Lizzie

Elizabeth

I thought I would feel relieved if I told you, but I only feel scared. If I let you in, please promise me that our relationship won’t change.

Julia

Since you had the courage to tell me your big secret, I feel I should share mine. I’m afraid it’s not very exciting. In fact, it’s the same as yours. I should have told you straight away, I shouldn’t have allowed you to feel so alone. I suppose we are alone in Collinsport. At least we have each other, if you’ll forgive me for taking so long.

Lizzie

Waking up in your arms I felt safer than I ever have. I wish I had the words to tell you how much I enjoyed last night. Forgive me for leaving so soon, I didn’t want anyone to see me come out of your room this morning.

I’ll miss you until breakfast. Your Julia x

Dearest Julia

My bed still smells of you. I suggest that after breakfast I may need to come to your office to discuss David’s progress, or whatever other excuse you can think of. You’re much better than me at excuses.

Lizzie

My Julia

It feels so good to call you mine. The word is too scary to commit to paper, especially with my brother snooping around the manor. I hope you know that I feel it for you anyway. I hope that one day we can display our devotion openly, but for now please know my feelings for you are like nothing I have felt before. You complete me, Julia

-Lizzie

Lizzie

Come to my office and I’ll say the words. I’d use my last breath to tell you what you mean to me.

Lizzie

I’m drunk. Let me in I want to cuddle